Sunshine

Emma Watson is so beautiful. Every morning I wish to woke up with this look. Screw panda face!

Well, hello there sunshine.

It's really been a while since I wrote a new post. Since the first month of the year my life's has been bumpy and rocky. I sometimes wonder is this like a punishment for my sins? It's not that I has commit a crime or what. If I don't explain, people will always talked back later. I am just sharing how I felt about my life. Don't aspect me to tell all my problem here. This is just a blog, not a diary. At the end of the day what I will get is just insensitive comments and hate. I myself don't know. It feels like torns of problem and shit keeping hitting me. I think I must have did something and god is trying to teach me a lesson. 

I don't blame anyone and I think I should not blame anyone. To be honest I sometimes felt sick and tired to handle this crappy shit. Everytime I sat alone I kept thinking that I deserve a break. It's not that I deserve it. It is sort of like I need a break. If I tell everyone, they surely won't understand the reason why. They will just stand in front of me and judge me like a boss. Some of them will surely say that I had to much break already. I enjoyed to much already. Huh, I don't call them haters. I feel that they love me too much and that's why they care about me.

My definition of having a break is about having a vacation. I always wants to go for a holiday alone. Haih, I wants to travel to Aspen Colarado. Ok, I wish I am a daughter of a millionaire so I could travel the world. If anyone read what I wrote they must think that I have such and expensive taste. I've talked to my family about my dream to travel to Aspen they was surprise because I even knew about that country. That was shock because Colarado is like an elit country. Only rich peoples will stay they. Well, a girl can always dream right?

Since I'm not a daughter of a millionaire I just hope that June is coming fast. On the month of June I'm travelling to Beijing China. Going to China is one of the things to do in my bucket list. I am grateful. 

I love travelling so much. I am grateful because I had a chance to visits European country and asian country. Seriously visiting others country are really fun. I hope next two years and I can go travel to Istanbul. Haih, I'll never stop dreaming big. 

Ok, I that's all for today. I hope you guys enjoy reading my holiday essay. Toddles!

" It take both rain and sunshine to make a rainbow"