Thursday, April 25, 2013
Thursday blue
Good music from the very talented Yunalis Zarai. It's the best medicine when I'm feeling like a crap.Hello everyone. Life's has been pretty hectic this few days. My assignment due date is just this Saturday but haven't even start writing. Well I procrastinate a lot and I don't mind peoples judging me over that attitude. Owh yeah, serve me right for procrastinating because now I feel like shit. I'm panicking like I'm dying tomorrow. Ermmm let's just hope I pass the module.
Friday, April 19, 2013
I am beautiful not matter what they say
As salam everyone. I know it's been a while since my last post. It's really hard for me to find time to write a beautiful post that will inspire peoples.
Urmmmmmm, I don't even know where to start. Over the joy and hurdle I've been through since I started learning I think I just need to blog. Well so many things lingers on my mind right now. Let's just begin before I forgot what I suppose to share. Nothing much in today's post. I'm just going to share what I has learned in my life in order to reach for the stars.
When I first started doing my diploma I'm not really sure of everything I had done. First day of diploma was really hard for me. I don't even know what to do and what to say. It's like I'm sitting alone in the jungle and I had no one to talk to. I remembered that time I don't even wan't to socialize with all the peoples I saw. I kept waiting for everyone to speak to me first before I introduce myself to them. On the first day everyone kinda look fierce to me and I'm just so scared to even say hi to them. Yes, I am the quietest student that day. Honestly in my family I am the loudest. With my family I can just act crazy, insane, cacat and silly. I always asked myself "am I normal to act this way?" wow, that's me in my family. Surprisingly I'm not that kind of person in college. People use to label me the quietest girl on the planet (no I mean in the classroom HAHA). Well I wonder why but I just can't be loud whenever I'm in college and other places. I guess things just worked that way when I'm not with my family.
I really learned a lot in diploma. I remembered in my first semester during diploma I failed one of the paper. That time I was so frustrated and depressed like I know I'm going to die. When I know I failed I was mentally and physically distracted with everything. I kept questioning myself " am I stupid?" "am I bad?". Well it's just hard for me to adapt to the situation that time. I thought if I failed one subject I'm not going to be able to complete my diploma. I think's having to deal with failure and frustration are horrible. That's not just it. As my journey as a diploma student go further I has to deal with other hard situation. Of all this time I thought taking exam is the worst but actually I has to deal with other tougher situation. It all started when I was told by my module leader that I has failed to complete my assignment and presentation. At that moment was so depress like it's coming to the end of the world. When other judge me I can't even deal with it. I felt like I am so stupid because kept letting everyone judge me. During my diploma I always find things are too tough for me to handle. I don't even see the real world yet but I already started assuming that things will become this way and will ended up this way. I once felt like giving up but I'm sane enough to think of my life.
Yeahhh. After the 3 tough years I finally graduate. I'm proud of my self because I myself never thought that I will actually graduate.
Now I'm officially a preschool teacher and a degree student. Trust me working and studying at the same time are not easy at all. I use to get panicked over the past 3 years but I has learn that living life is never easy. As time flies I don't really feel any pressure anymore. It's not that I'm saying things are getting easy but I now has learn to take things easy. I know no when to remain calm and not to panicked. Since I started working I has learn many things. I sometimes found things that I learned was valuable and precious. In the first few month I was a bit culture shock with the environment. Haha, now i've been working for almost 4 month already and I think I already get use to some situation. It's good that I don't easily get panicked when tough situation came to me. Overall since now I am still learning to be a better person. Now I realize that getting panicked over everything with not solve any problem. I also realize that taking things too easy will not gave any good.
Allhamdulillah, I can't still breathing in this world and makes this post alive. xoxo
Saturday, March 23, 2013
Second concert
Twin Tower Alive concert yesterday night was so much fun. I didn't always goes to concert so when I got this chances I'll make it memorable. Honestly before this I didn't even know that Demetria Lovato will be coming to the city of Kuala Lumpur. I found when my aunty told me that she got 6 ticket for free. My cousin told me at that moment that Demi is going to perform. I'm not a Lovatic but I just wanna watch her perform live. Omg yesterday I stand very close to the stage. I saw Demi for real and she's just killingly beautiful. Her voice was melodious and i it gave me goose bump. I'm not even fan but I am so amazed the moment I heard her voice. Now I think I've become a Lovatic. Haha overall tonight was a fun night that I will never forget.
Monday, March 4, 2013
I'm in love with you
Hello everyone.I'm a sucker for good food.
Honestly I don't really look for place to eat. It's always me being me so I just google where to eat. I love looking at foods picture on instagram and then I started craving for it. I'm not a fussy eater so I'll eat any kind of food at any kind of place. Usually I asked and look around to find good place to eat.Nah, take look at the picture. It's really weird to see me posting about foods. That's is so not me.
so yeah. Food at photography will never go wrong together. Some of us Malaysian think it's weird to take photo of what we eat. ok that all for now. I'll post again whenever I eat glorious food again
Stay by Rihanna feat Mikky Ekko
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Beast
Skinny Jeans by Zara. Pink Toy Watch. MAC makeup and my favorite notebook. I don't have a photographer camera so snap guna Iphone 5 pon boleh la
I apologize for not blooging for so long. I've been busy with life and love. I've been busy laughing and crying (haha well). I don't really plan to blog right now but I went for blog reading today. I found that blog and it really inspired me to blog often.
Life has been pretty terrific so far. Well terrific is the only word I can think about right now. Like my idol said " life is like a roller coaster ride". Yes now I can say I can relate to this quote.
LOL words can't even express how I definitely feel right now. It's a mix of feeling. I sometimes feels like laughing at my self and I sometimes feel like punching my self with a chair. Haha sorry for writing like a retarded women. Honestly I really feel like crap this few days. Sorry I can't explain why because I kinda feel this matter are too personal for me share with the world. I just hope each and everyone of you understand that i'm not feeling good at all.
Ok I better not write anymore or this post will gets obviase and unlogic. Whatever happens to me I'm just blessed with everything I have.
Xoxo bye
Monday, January 14, 2013
January is .......
Assalamualaikum everyone. Well hello everyone. I'm blogging using my cousin iPad today. Yes, blogging using an iPad is hard. I'm trying to get use to it since I can't always sit in front of my Acer laptop.January 2013. 1. Working life's is okay. Honestly I think it is just ok because I think there's still so much for me to learn. I've been working for almost 3 week now. Whatever it is I will do my very best in everything. Honestly I don't quite like posting about my working life in my blog because I things it's too personal for to share. Ok fine I will share some of it here but please don't expect me too write every single thing about my working life. I'm afraid that I might say something that is too detail about someone and maybe I will judge or comment about someone without noticing it.
2. Studying life is tough. Honestly last week I was super stressed until I think of differing my degree. Luckily I'm sane enough to still think about my future. Yeah and guess what? This Saturday and Sunday will be my exam. Ok I'm stressing out again and that is one of the reason I blog. Yes I will blog everytime like it's my guilty pleasure. Haha. Highlights of January 2013 1. Working as a preschool teacher. 2. Currently pursuing degree In Early Years Studies at SRI college 3. Went to have great dinner 2 minggu berturut- turut. I hope today is better than yesterday and tomorrow will be better than today. Amin.
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Just Getting Started
Assalamalaikum semuanya.
Eh pejam celik pejam celik dah tahun, dah 2013. Pejam celik pejam celik dah 9 January. Tahun baru kali ini tak sempat nak belog jadi maafkanlah diri ini. Tengok mercun pong pang pong pang pon tak sempat sebab malam tahun baru dok terkejar boyfriend korea si Sang Hyuk. Haha sekali lagi maafkan lah ku tak bisa (tiba-tiba).
Tahun pon dah baru, azam pon ada lah yang baru. Ehe ayat tu setiap tahun macam sama je kan? Asyik ngabor je tapi buat nye idok juge. Allhamdulilah tahun baru ni masih bernyawa, masih bernafas dan masih sihat. Semoga diri ini dipanjangkan umur selamanya.
Allhamdulilah sekali lagi kerana tahun baru telah memberi rezeki baru buat diri ini.Sekarang ni dah dapat kerja dah. Sekarang ni diriku bukan budak lagi yang dianggap tidak matang dan tak pandai berdikari. Sekarang ni dah tak boleh dah bangun lambat duduk dalam bilik syok sendiri. Aha supaya tidak ada yang bertanya berkali saya beritahu. Saya kini bekerja sebagai guru tadika di Smart Reader Kids Damansara Height. Amboiiii amboii guru tadika bunyi tak berapa nak sedap kan? Ok fine I work as a "preschool teacher" (sebut slang british girl padahal lidah berbelit belit nyebutnya). Ok the fact that I will be working with kids forever kinda amaze me. Forever ke? Hopefully la kalau tak ada cabaran melampau terlampau. Bila fikir balik macam tak percaya je that I choose to work with kids for the rest of my life. Cerita dekat sekolah tak ada apa sangat la kan. Kalau nak suruh cerita pasal budak-budak semua memang sebulan tak habis. Dalam hidup ni bukan budak-budak je banyak kerenah tapi yang dewasa lagi 1000 kali banyak kerenahnya.
Ok there goes my blog post in Bahasa Melayu. Rindunya menaip dalam bahasa melayu. Maklumlah sekrang dekat sekolah tu memanjang cakap bahasa inggeris berhabuk konon minah saleh celup. That all for today.
