I miss you

Assalamualaikum everyone. This post will be a very sad post.

Today when I woke up I just felt like some part of me is missing. I've missed someone I love with all my heart. I woke up this morning feeling so dumb and hopeless. The person I've been missing all this while is my beloved grandmother. I miss her so much. I miss her too much. I know she won't be able to read what I wrote about her because she is now in heaven.

I miss her. I miss her so much. Sometimes I felt so pathetic knowing that I'm missing someone who was not there with me. Whatever, but I really wished that my grandma would be beside me right now. I miss being in her arm. I miss listening to her silly jokes. I miss crying on her shoulder. Rindu sangat.

I remembered when I was little I am very attached to my grandma. I always slept with her every night in her bedroom. In the morning I'll cried and called her name and she will just run from downstairs and stopped cooking just to stopped me from crying. When I was little I just followed her everywhere she went. I'll be by her side every time. My grandma, she always watched me sleep because she's afraid that mosquito will bite my cheek. I'm so touched every time my family told what my grandma has done for me. She sacrifice a lot of things for me.

My grandma is funny type of women. She's not serious every time and that's why I always feel comfortable talking to her. Even when I wanted something for my birthday present I will  not be afraid to asked from her. She will bought everything that I wanted without complaining on how much the things would cost. Each time when I craved for her cooking she would just cooked it for me and send it to me house. She cooked the best gulai lemak siput and gulai lemak nangka. Basically her cooking are the best in the world that make me missed her even more.

During my teenage days sometimes my grandma used to gave comments to me. She can crack a jokes but at the same time she can be serious . Whatever she said to me will never puts me down because I know that she love as much as love her. Sometime I use to disobeys with her but now thinking of that make I miss her even more.

That all for now. If I keep writing I will take long. I know that Allah love her more. I hope she live happily in heaven. Semoga nenek ditempatkan dalam golongan yang beriman. Amin.